wave hello.
This is a real time photo of my husband flying one of the planes on the left or right point.
Not bragging, it's just surreal.
I look at this photo and just shake my head in disbelief.
The fact that he is living on this massive piece of metal in the middle of the sea is crazy.
How does one's mind really wrap itself around this concept?
Very rarely do I explore the Internet to find out
what he is "really" up to, but tonight I miss him and it made me feel closer.
and very proud.
He is doing what he loves, but just having to miss us in the meantime.
Plain and simple.
When the house is quiet and I am ready to sleep and he is not here, I get sad.
and I sleep with the
tv on.
and sometimes I let the kids bring the cereal box into my bed so I can rest a few more minutes and cuddle with them.
I am human.
and to think I have been doing this 'Single Mom' thing for 42 days?!?
My respect for women who do this on a daily basis is beyond words.
But I prove a lot to myself over this time apart.
I will be a better woman when he returns and that is something to pat myself on the back for.
That October day can not get here fast enough.
and Mom, I am fine.
Don't worry, I am just a little sappy and
premenstrual.
love you.
This is my deployment
theme song by
Meiko.
and its goes a little something like this...
Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you
And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
Jealous of the way they walk, the way *they* talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got